realize

when i get time to realize what im doing now, its really make me thinking about 'where is your heart?', "are you still in the same line?', "are you walking, running or stop in this movement?'.

its really checking my heart.

sometimes i need people to understand what is in my mind, so they doing what i want and not He want.

its really hard to be a leader, but im not give up, im still learning. 

when im learning, so everything can happen right..??

im chossing a wrong decisions, im get mad with someone or anything.

but we need to have humble heart to forgive, to say sorry, and for changing.

so life is longlife learning.

you cant stop learning if you want to get better and better.

when you are in the middle of learning dont be afraid for something..!!

lets learn..!!! 

give, it will come back to you.

Memberi itu lebih baik dari pada menerima.

Mendengar itu lebih baik dari pada berbicara.

Bertanya itu lebih baik daripada menghakimi.

membuat saya berpikir akhir-akhir ini, bagaimana saya di mata orang lain.
membuat saya introspeksi diri lagi dan lagi.

and sometimes we need to take time to realize everything.
what you have..??
and what you've done..??
is it good or bad..?
is it right or wrong..??

for me no more right and wrong because your decisions are teaching something.

if you just smile..

SMILE..

smile make people around you feel happy if they near you.

smile will turn your bad day to be a good day.

smile is very important thing in our life.

smile will make your day easy.

Dating

pacaran itu bukan soal kamu suka sama seseorang, lalu kamu melakukan langkah-langkah pendekatan dan ada rasa suka yg sama lalu jadian, lalu beberapa bulan kemudian merasa ga sama lalu putus.

itu arti pacaran yg terlalu dangkal untuk saya.

pacaran itu bukan soal ada cowo yg bisa ada di samping kamu saat kamu butuhin.

ada beberapa hal yg harus di pikirkan matang-matang sebelum mutusin untuk pacaran.

kalo di tanya saya sudah berapa kali pacaran, jawaban saya "saya belum pernah pacaran."

ada sedikit rasa malu, ada sedikit rasa terintimidasia akan hal itu. tapi bukan hal itu yang ingin saya bahas.

kalo kamu merasa kesepian, kalo kamu merasa ga da yg ngerti kamu selama ini, kalo kamu butuh bantuan akan suatu hal, jawabannya bukan dengan mencari pacar.

saya baca buku "waiting and dating" dan ada kata-kata ini ANDA SIAP BERKENCAN SAAT ANDA TIDAK MEMERLUKANNYA.

awalnya saya pun bingung dengan kalimat ini, tapi setelah saya membaca dan membaca terus buku ini. saya mulai mengerti apa maksud dr kalimat tersebut.

saat kamu hanya perlu berarti ada tuntutan yg harus d penuhi, setelah kamu merasa cukup kamu akan merasa bosan lalu mengambil keputusan untuk berakhir.

contoh nya seperti kamu perlu air untuk minum. setelah kamu minum air tersebut maka rasa haus itu hilang.

pacaran atau kencan bukan seperti itu. jadi jangan jadikan pacaran atau kencan sebagai suatu kebutuhan, tapi jadikan pacaran atau kencan sebagai pilihan. 

saat kamu memilih untuk berpacaran atau berkencan berarti ada keputusan yg d ambil saat itu.

ada beberapa hal yg sudah kamu pikirkan sebelumnya, ada beberapa hal yg sudah d pertimbangkan, ada beberapa saran yg mungkin kamu dengar dr orang sekitar.

pacaran atau kencan itu bicara soal hati, waktu dan keputusan.

jadi jangan main dengan hati, waktu dan keputusan.

karena semua itu ga akan pernah kembali.

use your heart, time and decision wisely..!!

LISTEN

Listen lyrics
Songwriters: Preven, Ann; Cutler, Scott; Knowles, Beyonce; Krieger, Henry;

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start but can't complete
Listen to the sound from deep within
It's only beginning to find release

Oh, the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own all 'cause you won't
Listen

Listen, I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried to say what's on mind
You should have known

Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own

You should have listened, there is someone here inside
Someone I thought had died so long ago
Oh, I'm screaming out and my dreams'll be heard
They will not be pushed aside on words
Into your own all 'cause you won't
Listen

Listen, I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried to say what's on mind
You should have known

Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own

I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't, if you won't

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start but I will complete

Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you think you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own, my own


© EMI APRIL MUSIC INC.; SHIGSHAG MUSIC; B-DAY PUBLISHING; SCOTTAROCK MUSIC;

these lyrics are last corrected by Oshiro Kai

tears

"Tears are words the heart can't express."

someone said dont to be naive
tears can't finished everyhting
yups it's true..really really true
but if you can't express ur heart cry is the best decission..

and very hard for my to cry
like i dont have tears
too tough..??
NO..

i'm too fragile too face all of this..

NOW

NOW

i can't feel anything
i don't want to talk about anything
i don't want to think about anything

too much talk
too much see
too much think about anything
too much tears to fall down
make me tired

i'm here without anyone
just realize everything

and I know one thing

that i can't count on everyone..
just me and my God..
no one can't touch my heart like Him..